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Posted: Sun Jun 01, 2008 4:51 am
Wow don't know how I missed this. Anyway my mom was good and bad. She had mental problems from bad things that happened to her as a child. She gave us kids a lot of love on one hand and gave us a hellish life on the other.
When she was with us she was great. Always praised us told us we were smart. Made us appreciate our minds. Many good things she taught us.
The other half of her was conniving, deceitful and she was very maniputlative.
She made us strong in ways she didn't intent. Growing up I was put in an orphanage for 3 years seperated from my brother by a chain link fence. It was not the best time in my life and I could ramble on about the heartache it caused me when I was 5-7. It did bring my brother and I very close to help each other deal with things.
She had divorced my dad when I was very young. I found out in high school I had 3 other sisters and 2 brothers floating around somewhere that I didn't even know about as she gave them all up for adoption. In those days if you weren't married well.... I have only met one half sister who looked for my mother. I don't know where the others are.
My brother and I were lucky in the one respect that she had married our dad and kept us kids. But we really never knew him as she divorced him when we were infants.
She caused me many problems over the years but she was very loving when she was on her "good" side. I have always said I love one side of my mother and detested the other side.
BUT it made me who I am today and I did love her. Most I put down to her insecurities and mental issues and her hyprocondriac issues. She was very emotionally disturbed in many ways. But it made us kids tougher and stronger.
She died about 6 years ago now and I did love her despite it all. She could be very kind and loving and generous. I wish her life had been happier for her and she hadn't had so many problems.
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